Like a fish.

SO!
musical auditions were today.
i was compleeeetely calm about it all day. i laughed at the people who stressed (in my head) and i mocked the people who stressed (in my head).

i came up to the audition, slightly unprepared. I had tried to memorise the lines for the Yente as much as i could, but either way, 2 afternoons notice was not enough to prepare and polish a piece worthy of auditioning.

I walked up and saw a bunch of anxious kids... waiting. But still i kept my cool. I went to the toilet, i pretened to flash people, i laughed i joked, and i was cool. But people started talking. I could see people getting called in, see people coming out. i felt their fear, and their nerves some how jumped onto me. And then, Kate and i were called in. And my heart started to beat faster, and faster, and faster....

When i started my scene, i got words wrong, i stuttered, i clutched onto my script and i rarely looked up. Just like i would do in an oral presentation. ANd then i was told to "Drop the random Irish accent".

=_=

Then came the singing time. I had practised so well! I had all my actions planned out! "just be confident" i told myself. But when i got up there, i froze, and my throat closed up. I was screaming at my legs to move, screaming at my arms to wave around, screaming at myself to be enthusiastic and confident, but my nerves crippled me.
The tension in the air was unbearable. it would've been painful to watch, especially painful for the teachers who knew me to watch :S
I was telling Erin that she would've hated to see it. You know when you watch someone who's SO bad that its seriously painful to watch??
well yer. That person was me this time :S

Ratcliffe asked me to sing again, and he got me to do my scene again. But still, i flopped.

Like a fish.
flop flop, flop flop.

The floppiest fish you could ever imagine.

Then scrambled out of the room, in a hurry, despite the fact that Mr Blackmore had told me to sing a bit of Frumah Sarah's song. I just ran away.

Like a fish.
run run, run run.

The runniest fish you could ever imagine.

And when i left the room i was abused severly for not auditioning as Frumah Sarah. They spat on me and kicked me and almost picked me up to throw me back into the audition room. But i kicked and screamed and protested!

Then the door screaked open, and Mr Blackmores glorious face appeared and he said something like "Mariah, come in here and do your Frumah Sarah"

and i went in there, and i screamed and shouted PEAAAAAARLLLSSSSSSSSS and pretened to bash a girls head around. And it was fun.

FUUUUN!!!!!!!!! :D

But still, it is slightly shameful that Mr Blackmore had to come and get me cause i was too scared to do it myself!!!

Just like a fish.