Made my own frozen yogurt last night.
-SLEAZY YOGËN FRUÏZZZZ-
Adam, that was for you ;)
And i am eating it right now.
very sleazily.
just kidding.
no i'm not.
yes i am.
no, i'm not.
yes i am.
I'm really not.
yes i really am.
ANY HOO!
i got some all natural yogurt that tasted bland and yucky, put it in a bowl, added some honey and some tiny pieces of orange, and started eating it while watching 'Offspring'.
But then i got sick of the taste quite quickly.
So i put it in the freezer.
So i am eating it now, annnnd. omgoshness.
I'm in heaven.
<3 <3
Monday, May 30, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
What is Modesty?
http://www.therebelution.com/modestysurvey/browse
Okay, here's another link.
Please read it, I found it extremely interesting.
A young girl had the idea for a Modesty Survey, and two teenage boys made it happen.
The Modesty Survey is a bunch of statements about girl's modesty that thousands upon thousands of boys either agree, strongly agree, disagree, strongly disagree or are nuetral towards. And they comment.
For example:
"Showing any cleavage is immodest"
36.6% strongly agree
33.8% agree
14.7% nuetral
12.7% disagree
2.3% strongly disagree
an example of a boys comment:
"This cannot be emphasized enough. Cleavage is perhaps the most "come and lust after me" thing a girl can show while still wearing clothes."
Some might find this offensive, some may find it extremely helpful, some may think it's untrue. But i found it interesting, and certainly worth a look.
Okay, here's another link.
Please read it, I found it extremely interesting.
A young girl had the idea for a Modesty Survey, and two teenage boys made it happen.
The Modesty Survey is a bunch of statements about girl's modesty that thousands upon thousands of boys either agree, strongly agree, disagree, strongly disagree or are nuetral towards. And they comment.
For example:
"Showing any cleavage is immodest"
36.6% strongly agree
33.8% agree
14.7% nuetral
12.7% disagree
2.3% strongly disagree
an example of a boys comment:
"This cannot be emphasized enough. Cleavage is perhaps the most "come and lust after me" thing a girl can show while still wearing clothes."
Some might find this offensive, some may find it extremely helpful, some may think it's untrue. But i found it interesting, and certainly worth a look.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
A Reason Why.
Us westerners move through life comfortably.
Happily, lazily, contentedly.
I don't care if contentedly isn't a word, it is now.
Us westerners have got it so good. Life is right on our doorstep. Our opportunities are almost endless. We have the option to work hard, and be rewarded. We have the option to succeed.
We have that option.
No matter what you say, i am saying it right now. You have that option.
It's funny, not in a ha. ha. way, but a sad, ironic sort of way, that westerners are the ones who make the most excuses, when they have the most opportunities.
Oh, why are the blessings bestowed on such unworthy people?!
Hardly any one aims high any more. And that baffles me.
I have a couple of theories:
1. People are scared of rejection and failure. People are afraid to lift themselves up, because the higher you rise, the further you fall.
This one is me. I have grown up with the mindset that if you never expect anything, then you will never be disappointed. I distinctly remember my 5-year-old self saying this regularly. "Mariah, Daddy will NOT show up. Mariah, the store will be closed. Mariah, they will NOT remember your birthday"
Isn't that depressing? That was my motto as a child. I guess i had to, or else i would be crushed over and over again, but i could have been a little more positive.
2.Plain laziness.
This one is also me. I'm comfortable where i am. I don't WANT to work hard. I actually like my life. So what if don't reach my potential? I kind of don't care. The only thing that will hurt is my pride. But you know what, i don't really care, because i've worked hard to prove to people that i have no expectations for my life anyway.
A little off track there, but hey. What ever. The main point is laziness. Now, people strive for comfort, not work. Effort and success is not as appealing anymore.
Okay, now time for some vulnerability.
I am terrified of rejection and high expectations.
I am terrified of humiliation and hurt pride.
I am terrified of putting myself out there, for something serious.
I am terrified of disappointing people.
I would rather people think i'm stupid, then think that i try and don't get something.
I don't like people to expect anything from me, or else i risk failure.
I am scared of having a dream, because if i do, I will only be disappointed.
I am terrified of wanting something, because the fall will always hurt more.
Wow, this is a very soppy, sentimental post, and i am rather embarrassed by it. But of course. People often are embarrassed by things that make them vulnerable.
Now for some comic relief, for my sake.
"I dream of a world where chickens can cross the road without being questioned."
well, it was funnier when i first saw it.
For the past year and a bit, i have been directionless.
I have had absolutely no idea what i wanted to do with my life, so i just trodded along, doing what i had to to just keep moving. Whatever direction that was in.
But now, i actually have a reason why!
I have a goal, and i feel excited.
I actually know what i want to do with my life, and it feels perfect.
But i scares me, because i don't like having goals.
Awkward cycle.....
but anyway, Mr Gilliver, if you ever randomly read this: Thank you.
Thank you for giving me that reason why. And even if doesn't work out, or i don't like it (I'm making excuses for my anticipated failure), i have a reason why now, and i driving force. And without it, I won't work as hard.
So yeah. Thanks Mr G.
I never, never would've thought of anything on my own. And i never would've discovered anything, and i never would have....... i don't know lot's of things. I wouldn't be this excited.
Long story short guys, get a reason why.
And talk to an awesome teacher who knows you better than a guidance counsellor.
Peace out, blog readers.
Happily, lazily, contentedly.
I don't care if contentedly isn't a word, it is now.
Us westerners have got it so good. Life is right on our doorstep. Our opportunities are almost endless. We have the option to work hard, and be rewarded. We have the option to succeed.
We have that option.
No matter what you say, i am saying it right now. You have that option.
It's funny, not in a ha. ha. way, but a sad, ironic sort of way, that westerners are the ones who make the most excuses, when they have the most opportunities.
Oh, why are the blessings bestowed on such unworthy people?!
Hardly any one aims high any more. And that baffles me.
I have a couple of theories:
1. People are scared of rejection and failure. People are afraid to lift themselves up, because the higher you rise, the further you fall.
This one is me. I have grown up with the mindset that if you never expect anything, then you will never be disappointed. I distinctly remember my 5-year-old self saying this regularly. "Mariah, Daddy will NOT show up. Mariah, the store will be closed. Mariah, they will NOT remember your birthday"
Isn't that depressing? That was my motto as a child. I guess i had to, or else i would be crushed over and over again, but i could have been a little more positive.
2.Plain laziness.
This one is also me. I'm comfortable where i am. I don't WANT to work hard. I actually like my life. So what if don't reach my potential? I kind of don't care. The only thing that will hurt is my pride. But you know what, i don't really care, because i've worked hard to prove to people that i have no expectations for my life anyway.
A little off track there, but hey. What ever. The main point is laziness. Now, people strive for comfort, not work. Effort and success is not as appealing anymore.
Okay, now time for some vulnerability.
I am terrified of rejection and high expectations.
I am terrified of humiliation and hurt pride.
I am terrified of putting myself out there, for something serious.
I am terrified of disappointing people.
I would rather people think i'm stupid, then think that i try and don't get something.
I don't like people to expect anything from me, or else i risk failure.
I am scared of having a dream, because if i do, I will only be disappointed.
I am terrified of wanting something, because the fall will always hurt more.
Wow, this is a very soppy, sentimental post, and i am rather embarrassed by it. But of course. People often are embarrassed by things that make them vulnerable.
Now for some comic relief, for my sake.
"I dream of a world where chickens can cross the road without being questioned."
well, it was funnier when i first saw it.
For the past year and a bit, i have been directionless.
I have had absolutely no idea what i wanted to do with my life, so i just trodded along, doing what i had to to just keep moving. Whatever direction that was in.
But now, i actually have a reason why!
I have a goal, and i feel excited.
I actually know what i want to do with my life, and it feels perfect.
But i scares me, because i don't like having goals.
Awkward cycle.....
but anyway, Mr Gilliver, if you ever randomly read this: Thank you.
Thank you for giving me that reason why. And even if doesn't work out, or i don't like it (I'm making excuses for my anticipated failure), i have a reason why now, and i driving force. And without it, I won't work as hard.
So yeah. Thanks Mr G.
I never, never would've thought of anything on my own. And i never would've discovered anything, and i never would have....... i don't know lot's of things. I wouldn't be this excited.
Long story short guys, get a reason why.
And talk to an awesome teacher who knows you better than a guidance counsellor.
Peace out, blog readers.
Friday, May 13, 2011
The Girl Effect
http://www.girleffect.org/share/the-big-picture/the-girl-effect-ticking-clock?sms_ss=facebook&at_xt=4dcdeca715dd7f7b%2C0
this is a short clip, it'll only take up a bit of your time.
Watch it.
it's slightly sad that we can talk about what girls like in the opposite genger, when girls overseas can never possibly dream of that luxury. They don't get a choice.
this is a short clip, it'll only take up a bit of your time.
Watch it.
it's slightly sad that we can talk about what girls like in the opposite genger, when girls overseas can never possibly dream of that luxury. They don't get a choice.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Skipping is defined as:
a. To move by hopping on one foot and then the other.
b. To leap lightly about.
Skipping is generally associated with happiness, and people therefore generally limit the properties and advantages of skipping to one emotion.
I am here to prove that those General People are incompetant, ignorant fools.
the term "Angry Skipping" Is incorrect grammar, but the meaning is still the same. "Angry" is used as the adverb (which, using correct grammar would be "Angrily")
Either way, Angry is used to describe the manner and emotion conveyed whilst skipping. Which is entirely possible. I can skip with whichever emotion i deem acceptable.
It is a misconception that skipping can only be accompanied by happiness. Skipping is a nuetral activity. You can Be angry, sad, happy, or whatever.
On another note, skipping is a great way to conserve energy.
Some people go for a run when they are angry. But what if they get tired? They skip.
the Physical does not define the emotinal, and the emotional does not define the physical. You can skip whilst angry, and that skipping can be very aggressive.
a. To move by hopping on one foot and then the other.
b. To leap lightly about.
Skipping is generally associated with happiness, and people therefore generally limit the properties and advantages of skipping to one emotion.
I am here to prove that those General People are incompetant, ignorant fools.
the term "Angry Skipping" Is incorrect grammar, but the meaning is still the same. "Angry" is used as the adverb (which, using correct grammar would be "Angrily")
Either way, Angry is used to describe the manner and emotion conveyed whilst skipping. Which is entirely possible. I can skip with whichever emotion i deem acceptable.
It is a misconception that skipping can only be accompanied by happiness. Skipping is a nuetral activity. You can Be angry, sad, happy, or whatever.
On another note, skipping is a great way to conserve energy.
Some people go for a run when they are angry. But what if they get tired? They skip.
the Physical does not define the emotinal, and the emotional does not define the physical. You can skip whilst angry, and that skipping can be very aggressive.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Why Girls like Boys.
Society is changing, and more and more girls are missing out.
Boys are spending more time on their hair than we are, boys are becoming insecure and vain and girls are missing out on the guys that they've always dreamed of.
I was taking a bath before, and i was just thinking about this stuff.
I believe there are three main reasons why girls like boys and a whole of stuff that girls despise in guys and in this post, i hope to address some of them.
Number 1:Confidence.
I see way too many facebook groups that guys join saying "Girls should make the first move"and "girls want sex just as much as guys" and "girls should make the first move, and that move should be a sandwich".
It is seriously depressing. I have some male friends, and most of them like a particular girl, but they chose to do absolutely NOTHING about it. Be BOLD, my friends. if you are keen on a girl, and you know who she is, know what she stands for and you are genuinely interested, YOU make the first move.
Thats YOUR job.
I'm not TECHNICALLY male, but one thing i am pretty sure of. Boys have to do this stuff to grow into men.
Broad statement, but i believe it's true. The teenage years are a delicate stage for both sexes, and they are a period of learning. And boys, have to learn to become men. And that involves being courageous, taking risks stepping outside of your teeny weeny comfort zone and being.... umm whats the word? Men.
Once upon time in the olden days, gentleman would "Woo" the girl. There was this concept, that a girls affections were prized and something to be won. But now we have the girls chasing after the boys and trying to gain the affections of the males. Girls are the ones peacocking now, dressing over-the-top, being flirtatious and attention seeking, and boys just sit back and enjoy the show.
I hate that.
Boys are being complacent and lazy, and in the process, girls value is degraded. A girls affection has no worth any more.
Number 2: Passion
Have you ever wondered why girls fall so hopelessly in love with Rock Stars and Celebrities? It's because they've got one thing that you probably lack: Passion.
Girls see rockstars on stage, giving their all and loving what they do. Movie stars often portray interesting life changing and PASSIONATE characters, and girls can't help but fall in love.
Boys that are passionate are irresitable to girls.
To Christians girls, guys that are passionate about God, are... the definiton of irresitable. Trust me. I've talked to other girls about this. Even if the guy is butt ugly, Passion for God is..... amazing. Gah. Trust me. But yes. Be passionate about music, art, be passionate about changing the world. Just be passionate about SOMETHING.
Number 3: Work Hard
Did you know that girls actually don't really like being better than you?
That's a turn off. Girls don't like it when they're smarter than you, stronger than you or more talented than you. Girls don't like it when they do better than you at school, you know why? Because grades usually equal effort. If a girl works harder than you, that is shameful to you. You should be ashamed.
Breaking news: girls like muscles. Shock horror: Muscles are the product of WORKING HARD. And girls like that. Good grades are the product of working hard. And girls like that.
Try hard in everything you do. Be PASSIONATE with everything you do. WORK HARD. Maths test? Work Hard and STUDY. Cross country? Work hard and TRAIN. Science competition? Try your best.
Be competitive, not in a jerky way. But in a passionate, fun way. Not in the douchey way where you become an arrogant jerk, but in a way that encourages others. Thats hot *Paris Hilton voice*.
If you win the cross country, girls notice you. May not fall for you, but start noticing you. If you top the class, girls notice you. If you got muscles, girls notice you.
Why do you think girls always fall for jerks? Thats really annoying ay.
I'll tell ya. Jerks are arrogant, and confident. A little arrogance is good. But not too much. Jerks are confident, and girls loooove confidence. and since they're arrogant, they elude to the fact that they are better than everyone else. And girls like guys that work hard and therefore like guys that are better than them. And BAM. Nice girls are taken by jerks. You gotta give the jerks credit, they go for the girl.
Many teenage boys spend more time on their hair than i spend on mine. ew. And many boys are lazy, and complain all the time, and spend WAY too much time of the x-box. And, a lot more boys are becoming insecure. Srsly.
If you have the mindset that you a gangly and lame and no girls will ever like you, then you will become that. be confident, be passionate, and work hard, dammit!
Girls do NOT like laziness.
Girls do NOT like making the first move.
Girls do NOT like boring.
Girls do NOT like a goal-less male.
Girls do NOT like to be second best.
Girls LIKE fairy tales.
Girls LIKE to be pursued.
Girls LIKE to be prized.
Girls LIKE to be number one.
SO guys: Work hard, be passionate, and be strong and courageous, my friends
AND GIRLS WILL LIKE YOU.
Boys are spending more time on their hair than we are, boys are becoming insecure and vain and girls are missing out on the guys that they've always dreamed of.
I was taking a bath before, and i was just thinking about this stuff.
I believe there are three main reasons why girls like boys and a whole of stuff that girls despise in guys and in this post, i hope to address some of them.
Number 1:Confidence.
I see way too many facebook groups that guys join saying "Girls should make the first move"and "girls want sex just as much as guys" and "girls should make the first move, and that move should be a sandwich".
It is seriously depressing. I have some male friends, and most of them like a particular girl, but they chose to do absolutely NOTHING about it. Be BOLD, my friends. if you are keen on a girl, and you know who she is, know what she stands for and you are genuinely interested, YOU make the first move.
Thats YOUR job.
I'm not TECHNICALLY male, but one thing i am pretty sure of. Boys have to do this stuff to grow into men.
Broad statement, but i believe it's true. The teenage years are a delicate stage for both sexes, and they are a period of learning. And boys, have to learn to become men. And that involves being courageous, taking risks stepping outside of your teeny weeny comfort zone and being.... umm whats the word? Men.
Once upon time in the olden days, gentleman would "Woo" the girl. There was this concept, that a girls affections were prized and something to be won. But now we have the girls chasing after the boys and trying to gain the affections of the males. Girls are the ones peacocking now, dressing over-the-top, being flirtatious and attention seeking, and boys just sit back and enjoy the show.
I hate that.
Boys are being complacent and lazy, and in the process, girls value is degraded. A girls affection has no worth any more.
Number 2: Passion
Have you ever wondered why girls fall so hopelessly in love with Rock Stars and Celebrities? It's because they've got one thing that you probably lack: Passion.
Girls see rockstars on stage, giving their all and loving what they do. Movie stars often portray interesting life changing and PASSIONATE characters, and girls can't help but fall in love.
Boys that are passionate are irresitable to girls.
To Christians girls, guys that are passionate about God, are... the definiton of irresitable. Trust me. I've talked to other girls about this. Even if the guy is butt ugly, Passion for God is..... amazing. Gah. Trust me. But yes. Be passionate about music, art, be passionate about changing the world. Just be passionate about SOMETHING.
Number 3: Work Hard
Did you know that girls actually don't really like being better than you?
That's a turn off. Girls don't like it when they're smarter than you, stronger than you or more talented than you. Girls don't like it when they do better than you at school, you know why? Because grades usually equal effort. If a girl works harder than you, that is shameful to you. You should be ashamed.
Breaking news: girls like muscles. Shock horror: Muscles are the product of WORKING HARD. And girls like that. Good grades are the product of working hard. And girls like that.
Try hard in everything you do. Be PASSIONATE with everything you do. WORK HARD. Maths test? Work Hard and STUDY. Cross country? Work hard and TRAIN. Science competition? Try your best.
Be competitive, not in a jerky way. But in a passionate, fun way. Not in the douchey way where you become an arrogant jerk, but in a way that encourages others. Thats hot *Paris Hilton voice*.
If you win the cross country, girls notice you. May not fall for you, but start noticing you. If you top the class, girls notice you. If you got muscles, girls notice you.
Why do you think girls always fall for jerks? Thats really annoying ay.
I'll tell ya. Jerks are arrogant, and confident. A little arrogance is good. But not too much. Jerks are confident, and girls loooove confidence. and since they're arrogant, they elude to the fact that they are better than everyone else. And girls like guys that work hard and therefore like guys that are better than them. And BAM. Nice girls are taken by jerks. You gotta give the jerks credit, they go for the girl.
Many teenage boys spend more time on their hair than i spend on mine. ew. And many boys are lazy, and complain all the time, and spend WAY too much time of the x-box. And, a lot more boys are becoming insecure. Srsly.
If you have the mindset that you a gangly and lame and no girls will ever like you, then you will become that. be confident, be passionate, and work hard, dammit!
Girls do NOT like laziness.
Girls do NOT like making the first move.
Girls do NOT like boring.
Girls do NOT like a goal-less male.
Girls do NOT like to be second best.
Girls LIKE fairy tales.
Girls LIKE to be pursued.
Girls LIKE to be prized.
Girls LIKE to be number one.
SO guys: Work hard, be passionate, and be strong and courageous, my friends
AND GIRLS WILL LIKE YOU.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Monday, May 2, 2011
i got in the car today and i told my mum about my incident today, and i started crying. crying in the car.
I have not been yelled at by a eacher for about three years. in fact, i cant remeber a time when a teacher has yelled at me like that, but i'm going to assume there has been, and that it was three years ago.
was i disrespecting her? No.
was i deliberately disobeying her? No.
was i swearing? No.
was i causing myself or others physical pain? No.
was i bullying another student? No.
was i caught smoking or drinking? No.
was i doing anything illegal? No.
was i doing anything against school rules? No.
was i the only one involved? No.
Sure, i was being disruptive. But it hardly warranted that reaction. I was outside, 2 minutes till the bell, with permission, using an outside voice, talking to a student who had already been excused from class on the balcony.
OMG! they come storming outside yelling and carrying on, i say sorry and smile and pack my stuff up. But OH NO! I'm being "extremely disrespectiful" for walking away when they asked me to go inside.
Now they are "not impressed" with me.
I spent the lunch time on my belly. Immobile. With sadness. My entire day ruined.
I talked to someone in the class, and she said "well, she was already really annoyed with the class"
Okay, so that explains a bit. But still. It's not okay to blow your top and make a kid cry just because your feeling frustrated that day.
They say students dont know whats going on in teachers lives, well ditto.
You rarely see students blowing their tops because their frustrated with a class.
Sigh. I should really stop saying this stuff. but i just feel sad and angry and sad. I need to have a good cry. Maybe have some icecream.
Dear Teacher,
I'm sorry for yelling. I really didn't mean anything by it. It was only 2 minutes till the bell so i didn't think anything of it.
I understand that you were having a bad day and you were already annoyed and stuff, and i'm sorry about that too.
I hope you will forgive me for yelling and making your life a bit harder.
and i'm sorry for blogging about it.
But don't worry. Nobody reads my blog anyway.
From a student your not impressed with,
Mariah.
P.s. no sarcasm intended.
I have not been yelled at by a eacher for about three years. in fact, i cant remeber a time when a teacher has yelled at me like that, but i'm going to assume there has been, and that it was three years ago.
was i disrespecting her? No.
was i deliberately disobeying her? No.
was i swearing? No.
was i causing myself or others physical pain? No.
was i bullying another student? No.
was i caught smoking or drinking? No.
was i doing anything illegal? No.
was i doing anything against school rules? No.
was i the only one involved? No.
Sure, i was being disruptive. But it hardly warranted that reaction. I was outside, 2 minutes till the bell, with permission, using an outside voice, talking to a student who had already been excused from class on the balcony.
OMG! they come storming outside yelling and carrying on, i say sorry and smile and pack my stuff up. But OH NO! I'm being "extremely disrespectiful" for walking away when they asked me to go inside.
Now they are "not impressed" with me.
I spent the lunch time on my belly. Immobile. With sadness. My entire day ruined.
I talked to someone in the class, and she said "well, she was already really annoyed with the class"
Okay, so that explains a bit. But still. It's not okay to blow your top and make a kid cry just because your feeling frustrated that day.
They say students dont know whats going on in teachers lives, well ditto.
You rarely see students blowing their tops because their frustrated with a class.
Sigh. I should really stop saying this stuff. but i just feel sad and angry and sad. I need to have a good cry. Maybe have some icecream.
Dear Teacher,
I'm sorry for yelling. I really didn't mean anything by it. It was only 2 minutes till the bell so i didn't think anything of it.
I understand that you were having a bad day and you were already annoyed and stuff, and i'm sorry about that too.
I hope you will forgive me for yelling and making your life a bit harder.
and i'm sorry for blogging about it.
But don't worry. Nobody reads my blog anyway.
From a student your not impressed with,
Mariah.
P.s. no sarcasm intended.
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